Happiness

After waking up at three in the morning a few nights, only to lie in bed and stare at the ceiling with a head full of thoughts, I decided to stay up last night and write a little bit...


Happiness

Far too long we've spent apart,
and time has taken its toll
on your heart and convictions.
Your distrust and disbelief
have taken their toll on me.
Why is it we "fight" so much?

I know I've hurt you before.
How I've tried to make amends
for all that I've put you through.
What I don't know how to say
is that you've been hurting me
with each unresolved issue.

Bringing up from years ago
the unhappiness and doubt
that still remains within you
convinces me it's futile.
I will never live this down,
and you will never trust me.

You ask me to support you
and to just be there for you.
I've spent a year and more
listening and supporting,
I've been waiting... wondering
why it hasn't changed your heart.

What is it I'm doing wrong?
Maybe it isn't just me...
And maybe it isn't you...
Have we grown too far apart?
The real question for me though...
How can we both be happy?

- 05 January, 2010