2nd Chances

This was one of my first cracks at verse outside of the school setting. This was written during my senior year in high school, and written right after Gunn broke up with me for the first time. Since 7th grade, it was the first time ANY boy had broken up with me. Because of that, he was the first boy I ever cried over as well.

Another first : he was the first boy with whom I had ever contemplated the meaning of love. He said it to me, and at the time I really did believe him (... even now I'm not sure if he was just saying it to get what he wanted) but never was I comfortable in saying it back to him. I think I let him see this about a week after the breakup, and we got back together a week after that. The first 'second chance' I ever gave, and I should have learned after that.


2nd Chances

Thinking all night
about you and me
things aren't right
and I can't let that be.

I was fine
when you said good-bye
but after you left
I started to cry.

Why couldn't you tell me
what was on your mind?
It's left me wondering
if we can get out of this bind.

If things were simple and fair
I would know what to do
every thought and feeling I'd share
I'd share everything with you.

Everything we've ever said or done
has created our great history
and without you I'm not any fun
but the future is still a mystery.

Maybe there is a way
to calm the things I fear
if in your arms I could stay
then maybe you won't disappear.

So I'll let you in again
into my heart and head
'cause you're still my best friend
and we've not yet come to the end.

- 08 March 2003