My Confessions : Part II

Ace and I were still trying to work things out, and the relationship between Champ and I was up for discussion. Though it was not a matter of 'life or death' it was still a cause for much concern, and when I turned to Champ for answers, his callous response of "I was warned" haunted me for months. Even now, residual anger flares when I think about that time in my life... it affected me for the next year and some months... it scares me even now, thinking about it.


My Confessions : Part II

I thought we were great those first weeks we shared
We did everything together each day.
You seemed genuine, I knew that you cared
Had I felt the same, I just might have stayed.

How wrong I had been those months long ago
It seems like a dream - rather, a nightmare.
There was much inside I had to forego
Oft we were angry and did naught but stare.

But stare we do not, no longer at least
You took care of that with child-like antic.
Without my knowing our talking had ceased
And for weeks after it had me frantic

Some questions arose in my heart and head
I wrote them all down, but not for your eyes
Despite that you found my words and you read
Things that irked you so you broke all our ties.

Now I realize how childish you are.
It's hard to believe it took me this long
To see the real you, I was fooled thus far.
You I had trusted - it seems I was wrong.

You weren't there for me when I made that call
And told you my news, you said I was warned.
As you turned your back I built my own wall
And cried bitter tears, for me you had scorned.

I am not that girl you met years ago
But neither are you that boy I cared for.
No longer do I desire to know
Your thoughts or feelings, I love you no more.

You feign apathy and disdain for me
Get over our past and act like you claim
Deal with your anger or you'll ne'er be free
From this - forever stuck in this child's game.

- 04 November 2005